So like a good little writer, I spent the past few days going over all my 2022 accomplishments and making plans for 2023. I’ve been off from the Evil Day Job since before Christmas. While it’s been a nice break, I feel the pressure building because tomorrow I’ll be back to work. I need to know what I’m going to be concentrating on and have a plan for how I’m going to finish all the things on my plate.
Yesterday I created a desktop for myself with my word and affirmation for 2023, including covers for each of the books that I’d like to focus on and write/finish over the next month(s). That way every time I open my computer, I’m looking at the things I’m supposed to be working on.
I was up until 1 AM last night against my better judgement. I decided to total up all my words for 2022 for comparison to 2021. While I do keep track of daily sprints, I evidently forgot to total up by month since March of last year. (I ended up writing 213,590 words if you’re interested.)
I’m already thinking about returning to work, and I guess that was on my mind because I could NOT sleep.
Toss. Turn. Flop. Fluff pillow. Doze. Wake. Asleep. Awake. For hours.
A song kept running in my head. I knew the song was on my Queen Takes Death playlist (still in progress – some songs are in trial mode and may come off). I knew it was by Halsey. But I couldn’t remember exactly which one or what the lyrics were. It just kept playing in my head. I woke up at 7:30 AM hot because my Ooler kicked off. I turned it back on and went to the bathroom while I was awake again. Climbed back into bed and settled in to try and get a few more hours of sleep on this last precious day of vacation…
The song was still playing in my head. Just snippets of lyrics but more the melody and meaning behind the song.
And then Karmen started talking in my head.
Karmen hasn’t had much to say since last year when I wrote her short story for the Love & Legends anthology. Suddenly I had the opening lines for Sunfires3.
I lay there a few more minutes, trying to get back to sleep. But then I was worried that I might forget those opening lines. I didn’t want to lose her voice if she had something to say. Remember too that I’m dedicated to following the spark and joy this year. That’s why my word is EASE. If I’m feeling the magic, then the words flow. It’s easy and right and natural.
So I got up early on my last day off and started Sunfires3.
The book that is not on my desktop staring back at me.
The song: Control by Halsey. It’s now on the Sunfires playlist.
P.S. I was so groggy and clumsy from the horrible night of sleep that I broke my favorite coffee mug. I set it on the counter to open the fridge for the half and half, and it just tumbled off and shattered on the tile floor. I can’t replace it. They don’t make that size any longer. It was my One Cut Deeper custom cup that I made myself. Sigh.
As a reward to myself for not quitting i started rereading your work over the month of december. This morning I finished Helayna’s v2 and downloaded Karmen’s story. I felt like she was yelling at me but i had to do everything in order. That’s how i’ve always done it since i started reading Patty Briggs’ work as a teenager. Your stories are the only other ones i reread so my 2023 hype is real.
Then again…that POOR MUG. My heart goes out to you. Anything but the mug. Take the coffee and the favorite hoodie…
I’m excited Karmen was talking again! Sorry about the mug I know it’s hard to replace a favorite comfortable mug but you got this! So excited to see how you fly through this year