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NaNoWriMo: Day 2

Back to Victor, with pretty good progress today.  The scenes are a little choppy but nothing I can’t smooth in revision.  The bones are there and that’s all I need right now.  After getting my quota for Victor, my reward is a few minutes in DEATHRIGHT before stumbling off to bed.  I’ll update this post tomorow with whatever words I might get.

Today:   2,088

Victor:  33,518

Deathright:  (rolled to day 3 count – not enough to matter)

NaNoWriMo Total:  5,821

Snippet:  Since I’ve been doing Friday Snippets in Victor, I don’t want to skip too far ahead to today’s words and mess up your timeline.  So I’ll give you a bit of Deathright.  This follows the opening section I showed you yesterday.

This woman might be dressed in the manner of the fine ladies of the Imperial Royal Court, but she possessed the courage of a Matriarch.  If only she possessed the same honor, then he might indeed be prepared to deal with her.  “Release me from these bonds so we may negotiate the terms of our agreement.”

Lady Araknae stared back at him coolly, but her hands betrayed her.  Shaking, she brushed absently at the spotless skirts of her gown.  Her skin was nearly as white as the fine linen, flawless, smooth, and flecked with delicate gold.  Glossy black hair coiled her head in a tight braid, while piercing turquoise eyes ringed with indigo searched his face, measured the width of his shoulders, and assessed the bulk of his body.  He did not need the tightening of her mouth and the increased pallor of her face to tell him what she thought of his appearance.

The silken taste of her skin lingered on his tongue, sharp with fear, bitter with instinctive revulsion, and yet as controlled as any experienced soldier.  She was afraid but determined and possessed a formidable intelligence dark with secret knowledge.  Horror roiled there in the secret recesses of her mind.  She knew something so dreadful that she was prepared to abandon her family, her country, and every privilege she’d enjoyed as a wealthy and titled citizen of Britannia to keep that knowledge from falling into the wrong hands.

With such knowledge, perhaps the Matriarch can recover our independence by striking down the very Empire which destroyed us.

Lady Araknae stepped around the table behind him and entered the codes that released the bonds chaining him in place.  He exploded up out of the chair and jumped to the wall away from the door.  With his fists and fangs at the ready, he held his breath, waiting for the door to fly open.

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NaNo: Day 1.1

Between laundry and football, I didn’t get quite as much done today as I hoped, but I’m pretty pleased overall.  It helped to sketch out notes by hand off and on throughout the day, so that when it was time to sit down and write, I had the direction.  I continued to work in Deathright today, but first thing tomorrow, I’m switching to Victor. 

NaNoWriMo Total:  3,733

Deathright:  6,646

Victor:  31,430

Snippet:  I’ll post the opening section of Deathright, but the rest of the snippets will be much shorter, even once I switch to Victor.  This first part has been at least cleaned up a little — but today’s words haven’t been, and I don’t think I’ll have time to clean them up any time soon! 

The most pressing difficulty with living on a remote planet dedicated to the study of alien species was, quite simply, the aliens.

Catriona Lizbonne, Lady Araknae, watched with barely veiled distaste as the mechs deposited the unruly alien specimen opposite her.  Bio-enhanced robotics possessed more than twice of most any living creature’s strength, yet it took three mechs to secure the restraints on the big Razari.  Hissing and snapping treacherously fanged teeth at the armored limbs locking him into place proved ineffectual, and at last, the Razari ceased his struggles and turned slitted green eyes on her.

For a remarkably ugly alien, he had the most brilliant emerald eyes she’d ever beheld.

“My lady.”  The highest-ranking mech sketched a bow to her, his body mostly living tissue with only minor technical enhancements. “If you need anything, simply ring for assistance.”

Catriona inclined her head, trying to be as cold and regal as her mother, the Duchess of Araknae and ruler of this forsaken rock on the farthest reaches of the galaxy.  Her mother’s title provided great prestige and assured at least the polite cooperation of every mech currently deployed by the Military Intelligence & Galaxy Sciences, known simply as MIGS.  On the other hand, the General and his cadre of brilliant scientists were an entirely different story.

If they discover my plans, I’ll be silenced before I’m even aware that the Game is afoot.  A mech in my sleep, poison in my replicated food, an innocent anomaly in my vaccinations, nothing else will matter, for I’ll be dead.

The mechs clattered out of the room and the door swished shut.

She picked up the datapad and pretended to read the alien’s file—which she’d already read so many times she’d memorized every detail—until she managed to calm her mind.  Beneath the table, she slipped her left hand into her reticule and wrapped her fingers around a small silver tube.  To the untrained eye, it was a simple stick of rouge to be applied to either the lips or cheeks.  Cosmetics were all the rage at Court, or so the Duchess of Araknae had prattled on and on about at dinner last evening. 

If the tube were scanned, however, one would find a tiny modulator hidden inside that would disrupt the listening and recording devices hidden in every room and hallway of the MIGS Headquarters.

The Razari’s breath hissed in the silence, his rage and hatred a discernible vibration on the air.  He stared at her, grim in his ferocity, but silent.  He’d had enough contact with the Empire and MIGS to expect the worst.

The scientist in her couldn’t help but take note of their species’ differences.  He was humanoid, yes, but so very exotic and large in appearance as to be considered monstrous.  He strained against the wrist cuffs they’d locked in place about his massive forearms until tendons and veins stood out in stark relief against his brownish skin.  Dark iridescent green markings ringed his wrists and disappeared up beneath the short sleeves of his standard black uniform.  More emerald markings mottled his throat, a striking compliment to the greenish-black fronds of hair which waterfalled down his shoulders and back.  Around his neck, he wore a dull black chain from which hung six glassy crystals, each as long as her thumb.

Despite her extensive education in the sciences, she still felt a moment of surprise that he wore clothing and jewelry, for which she immediately suffered a pang of shamed regret.  Such privileged thinking had excused the destruction of species after species in the name of Britannia.  Entire civilizations had been lost in the name of protecting—or expanding—the Empire.  That Britannia’s noble Houses’ pockets had expanded at a comparable rate was merely an insignificant observation made by the subjugated species which now bordered on extinction.

If this male…man…walked into the Royal Court in Londonium, the Queen’s Guards would surely obliterate him on the spot.  Then Her Majesty would send an entire legion against Razar itself to ensure no one dared oppose her.

Catriona ran through everything she knew about the Razari, which was dreadfully insufficient for such a monumental decision.  Can I trust him?  With my life?

The alien leaned forward, pinning her with his eerie eyes.  His crystals clanked on the table.  “My papers are in order.  You have no right to hold me.” 

“These papers?”  She pulled out a heavy vellum document bearing a seal stamped in black wax, which embedded the nanochip for easy scanning—and, more importantly, tracking.  Spreading it open, she read aloud:  “Zang of Razar, indentured Captain of the ship, Skog, conscripted into service of the Military Intelligence & Galaxy Sciences on this day…”

“Zane-guh,” the alien said, lips pulled back in a snarl.  “I serve as Captain and am unavailable for your experiments.  It says so clearly in my contract.  The Matriarch was very explicit in her agreements with your Queen.  Never again will a Razari be subjected to biotech!”

His Matriarch had indeed been very clever and careful in her desperate negotiations to save as many of her people as possible after the Empire had unleashed the latest bio-engineered weapon on her planet.  Despite the atrocities of genetic mutation and widespread death she knew had coccurred on Razar in a bloody, horrible war frightfully not unique in the Empire’s long history, Catriona forced out a trilling laugh in case anyone happened to be monitoring this room.  However, she couldn’t hide the faint tremble of her fingers tracing the black seal of the eight-legged spider that had made this planet infamous.  “If you know anything at all about MIGS, then you know she’s not my Queen.”

“I have served my contract with honor.  In three more years, my debt will be paid in full and I will be free.”

She allowed a grimace to twist her mouth.  “Free.  As long as you avoid Her Majesty’s Sublime Space.  Free as long as you stay off her Silk Roads.  Because if any Imperial ship spots your little cruiser, you’ll be blasted out of the sky.”

“Free.”  The alien arched his neck and upper back into a hunch, lowering his head in a fierce glare, his eyes glittering like fiery jewels.  “The deathright is mine, bought and paid for in the blood of my people.  I shall die with honor and none can take that freedom from me.”

She’d noted the strange reference to deathright in his contract but had no idea to what it referred.  Thumbing the slim canister to activate the disruption, she leaned forward and lowered her voice.  “What if I purchase the remaining years of your indenture?  You could be free in months rather than years.”

His tongue flicked out—thankfully not forked or she likely would have shuddered—but it was black and strange enough that she unconsciously pulled back to a safer distance. 

Cocking his head, he studied her, his eyes flashing oddly.  “That would be a very great sum, my lady.”  She heard the sneer in his voice, even if his lips didn’t curl with disdain.  “My ship in particular has a reputation of slipping in and out of nearly any Imperial port without detection.  MIGS shall not price the Skog or her captain as a bargain.”

“Price is not your concern.”

He lowered his head even more, straining against his bonds to reach further across the table to flick that odd tongue at her.  During their research before the assimilation of Razar, Imperial scientists had speculated that a Razari’s sensitive tongue could be used to convey information such as emotions and intent by tracking pulse, temperature and even scent.  Steeling herself, she leaned forward, too, refusing to show any fear or hesitation.  If he were trying to judge her honesty, she would at least make it easy for him, no matter her revulsion. 

A mere hand span separated their noses.  His tongue flicked out again, close enough she felt the wind of its passing, but she didn’t flinch.  “And what, my lady, do you require in return?”

At least the disdain had been replaced with a grudging admiration.  She harbored no illusions that any non-Razari had ever allowed him this close.  She refused to think about how sharp his teeth must be.  “I want passage to a planet far from Sublime Space.  Can you recommend a safe haven for an expatriate?”

“I can indeed.  But before I agree, I shall need to examine my passenger and her cargo in excruciating detail.”

Catriona swallowed.  She had no idea what the alien might require of her, but she’d do it.  Failure was not an option. 

Gripping the disruptor tightly in her left palm like a holy relic, she prayed her sweat wouldn’t compromise it.  She rose slowly, leaning closer to the alien with her right hand braced on the table to keep her balance.  His scent was not unpleasant but strange, ripe with the odor of green growing things and brackish water.  She brushed her cheek against his. 

The damp heat of his tongue tapped gently along her jawline to the pulse throbbing in her neck.  There, he planted his tongue firmer, as though scanning the very blood in her veins for some biological signals she couldn’t even begin to fathom.

At last, he withdrew.  Calmly, she straightened and slipped the disruptor back into her reticule.  She met his gaze and found his eyes sparkling, whirling green and gold glimmers that made her dizzy.  “Well, then, Captain Zang.  Do we have a bargain?” 

 

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NaNo: Day 1

I cannot tell a lie:  I’m feeling rather scattered and stressed as NaNoWriMo kicks off today, and so I decided to stay up and get a head start.

I spent the day throwing together a first chapter for a contest that ended today.  I’d spent time on it weeks ago to plot it out, but then changed my mind on the world and genre.  This past week, I spent a little time each night reworking the plot to fit into the new world, but I only had a few hundred words of the chapter started. 

Determined to submit after spending so much time plotting and worldbuilding, I hadn’t taken careful note of the deadline, and nearly freaked out when I realized I couldn’t wait until midnight to submit, but 5 PM PST.  I rushed to complete my project before heading out for dinner and trick or treating for the monsters.  This is a new story, but connected to something I’ve shared and hinted at before here.  I hope you’ll end up seeing more of it next year, regardless of how the contest pans out.

I wrote over 2K for that project and a query, but couldn’t count those words for NaNoWriMo.  Since that project was handy–instead of Victor–I went ahead and worked on the next chapter tonight.  NaNoWriMo is all about the words and pushing forward no matter the cost, so you may see tallies across both Victor and the new one I’m calling Deathright.

Today’s Total words:  3,745

NaNoWriMo Total:  1,687

Deathright:  4,603

Victor:  31,430

To keep everything straight across multiple previously-started projects, I created a “NaNoWriMo” document to which I’ll paste each day’s new words regardless of project.

Each day, I’ll try to post a tiny snippet, maybe a single favorite line, etc. just to keep things interesting.  This is the opening line to the new story:

The most pressing difficulty with living on a remote planet dedicated to the study of alien species was, quite simply, the aliens.

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Friday Snippet: #Victor

I skipped a few pages since last Friday’s post, both to keep some of the show’s details secret and to get to the juicier stuff.  *winks*  First draft, subject to revision, the cutting floor, etc.  Enjoy!  (Don’t forget to enter the Halloween giveaway to win a copy of The Sweetest Kiss, Ravishing Vampire Erotica!)

Smiling, Victor stood and reached out to take Shiloh’s hand.  “You’ve sold us, Ms. Holmes.  Mal and I will co-produce the show, but I’d like for you to be the showrunner.”

Her eyes gleamed, shimmering with unshed tears.  “Thank you so much, Mr. Connagher.  It’s an honor to work with you.”

He didn’t release her hand and she made no move to pull away.  “Mal, get to work on the contracts for our in-house people.  For sure, lock Georgia into the host position if she’s interested.  We need to be taping by the end of the week.  Preferably tomorrow if we can swing the set.  Make sure every single person down to the lowest gaffer on set signs the confidentiality agreement.  I don’t want a single word of this leaking before we’re ready.”

“I’m on it.”  Mal gave Shiloh a knowing smile and headed for the door.  “Welcome to the team, Ms. Holmes.”

“Just Shiloh, please,” she said, smiling.

The door shut.  Victor watched the emotions flaring in her eyes and across her face.  Pure, sunny excitement, lip-biting anticipation, growing warmth in her eyes the longer she stared back at him.  Slowly, he tightened his fingers.  Her breathing caught, quickened, and her eyes turned smoky and heavy-lidded without a single hint of fear.

“If I must be one of the judges competing for the title of Master, then you must be a,” barely, he managed to avoid saying my, “submissive for the show.”

She rolled her bottom lip between her teeth and it was all he could do not to lean down and place his own teeth on that tender flesh.  “I hope it’s not too presumptuous of me to admit that’s exactly what I planned.”

He squeezed harder, waiting for that little gasp of pain that said he’d gone far enough…so he could go just a little bit further.  “There were easier ways to approach me than to devise an entire show to lure yourself into my clutches.”

She laughed out a low groan that was music to his ears.  God, it had been entirely too long since he’d worked a responsive sub over and enjoyed that symphony of pain and pleasure.  “It wouldn’t have been very professional of me to prance into your office stark naked.”

“Not professional,” he agreed, drawing her closer.  “But a damned pretty sight.  Are you going to be able to handle showrunner duties as well as putting up with me on set?”

“Of course.”  She blinked away some of the haze darkening her eyes.  “I’ve dreamed of nothing else for months.  I can do it, Mr. Connagher.”

He squeezed harder, his grip brutal, he knew, crushing her delicate hand in his own big palm that could still throw a football in a perfect spiral at fifty yards.  Greedy, starved, he felt as crazed as an addict who’d fallen off the wagon after years of abstinence.

She whimpered, a cry that sliced his heart into ribbons even while lighting a fire in his blood that wanted her writhing and screaming, begging him to stop.

It’s better to know now, he tried to console himself, waiting for her to jerk away.  Maybe she’d slap him and stomp out of VCONN entirely.  It would be the best for both of them.  Certainly safer than putting herself into his hands, hoping he’d have the mercy and decency to control himself without committing serious harm.

Knees crumpling, she fell against him, sliding down his legs so she knelt at his feet.  Rubbing her cheek against his stomach, she twisted her head so she could look up at him.  “What may I call you, sir?”

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Samhain Free Reads

If you’re looking for free Halloween reads — and other holiday stories in the upcoming months — check out Samhellion!  They’ve been giving away stories the last few weeks and will continue through Christmas.  Today, my free sequel “Take Me” to Dear Sir, I’m Yours, is available for download.

(You can always find my free stories on the Free Reads page or at Scribd.)

I’ll post about a Halloween giveaway here later today, so stay tuned!

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NaNoWriMo: Winning Without Cheating

If you’re joining the insanity next month but you don’t want to resort to typing in song lyrics or throwing in an exploding elephant as a writing prompt, how do you get through the tough moments?  No matter how much you love a story and want to finish it, there are going to be stretches of the journey that are difficult to climb, bottomless gorges to traverse, and merciless heights to scale.

Here are a few techniques I’ve picked up over the years, many from writing a “Fast Draft” several years ago.

  1. Do as much prework as you can stomach. Don’t spoil the process for yourself.  e.g. if spreadsheets make you break out in hives, just jot a few notes.  Do whatever you can for character building, plot ideas, backstory, etc. that you can possibility do prior to Nov. 1st.
  2. If you do get stuck but don’t want to stop the word counts, try writing something from #1 above. It won’t help your overall ms length in the end, but it may very well help you FINISH the story, which is the ultimate goal.  (And the words will certainly help your NaNoWriMo counts.)  Pick a major event in the hero’s past and explore it in detail.  Write a character letter for the heroine and explore some of her core decisions — who she really is, what she fears, what she wants, what she needs to overcome.  None of this will be wasted if it helps you reach “The End.”
  3. Skip to scenes you already know.  There is no writing rulebook, and there’s no reason you have to write every scene in order.  From my experiences, I almost always have to rewrite these scenes in revision — enough changes in the intermediate scenes that I just can’t use the scenes that I skipped to, at least not cut-and-paste use.  However, figuring out those later scenes may very well give you exactly what you need to go back and write the middle, so don’t be afraid to skip around.
  4. Don’t get bogged down in the details.  This is not time to stop and research something, or look up something on a map.  It’s way too easy to lose an hour Googling just the right color to make the heroine’s gown or the perfect street to send the villain.  Make a note and move on, either with [notes to yourself inside the text] or…
  5. Keep a notebook handy.  The one benefit of writing faster than usual is that I tend to spend more time in the zone.  As I’m writing the current scene, my mind is zipping forward to the next, and the next, getting ideas, generating new elements.  Don’t think you’ll remember them later!  Take a few minutes and jot those ideas down.  You’ll be thankful the next day when you wake up groggy and can’t remember your hero’s name!
  6. Don’t backtrack. Now this one I do sometimes cheat on, but I try really hard not to backtrack too much.  I like to make sure I’m keeping the tone right and the characters true, so every 100 pages or so, I like to stop and reread everything.  Or I reread the previous chapter.  This becomes a problem if you’re constantly flipping back — because we love to revise.  Don’t fall into the trap of revising what you’ve already written — that’s for Dec. and Jan. after the book is finished!
  7. Don’t revise. If you do realize that a major revision is going to be required, make a note in the notebook and continue writing as though you’ve already made the change. This can be really hard, I know, and sometimes, quite frankly, I just can’t stand it.  The perfectionist in me cannot move on until I make that major plot change.  However, for NaNoWriMo purposes, you’ll have a much better chance of hitting your words if you keep your forward progress.
  8. Get your words, and THEN visit the forums. Part of the NaNoWriMo fun is the world-wide energy.  It’s a blast to know all these people are churning words out frantically with a common goal.  You definitely don’t want to miss sharing experiences and enjoying that energy on the forums and blogs.  However, get your words first!  It’s super easy to get pulled into the latest discussion, and before you know it, that precious hour of writing time is gone.
  9. Don’t get hung up in the “competition” aspect. While NaNoWriMo is fun, don’t let it control you.  Don’t start throwing crap together just to win.  Keep your eye on the prize — a finished PUBLISHABLE ms.  NaNoWriMo can be a fabulous tool to keep you motivated and help you write faster than you ever thought possible, but it can also be stressful.  You may think you’re doing great, and then you stop by the forums and some crazy person already has 100K and is still going strong.  Talk about taking the wind out your sails!  Somebody is always going to write faster and better.  It’s a fact.  Write the best you can and enjoy the process.  It’s your journey and nobody else’s.

A final caveat.  Don’t write fast just to hit that 50K.  I know that sounds contradictory to what I just wrote above, but I’m speaking from personal experience here.  I’ve done Fast Draft.  I wrote 50K+ in 11 days to finish a first draft of a story.  That was two years ago.  I’ve tried on two separate occasions to revise that story and submit it, and I’ve failed both times.  Was there value in the experience?  Definitely.  Did I come up with a publishable ms?  *falls out of chair laughing–or weeping*  No.

If your goal is a publishable manuscript, you may not be able to write 50K in one month.  I may not be able to write Victor’s story in the kind of shape it needs to be in to submit by January.  That’s okay.  I’d rather lose NaNoWriMo — even though I’ve won two years in a row — than miss my personal deadline I set to submit my story.  If Victor needs me to go back and revise, then I’m going to have to do it, challenge be damned.

Keep your eye on the prize.  Use NaNoWriMo as a tool to succeed, not to write another story that’s only going to sit in your files.

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NaNoWriMo: Thoughts

All around the Internet, people are chomping at the bit to begin NaNoWriMo next month.  Thirty days of mad slinging of words with a 50,000 word goal line.  It’s fun, it’s insane, and yeah, it can be stressful.

I hate to lose.  I hate to fail at a challenge.  So I always get anxious this time of year as I contemplate NaNoWriMo. 

I wouldn’t miss it for the world, but I always need to hide that faint tremble of trepidation.  Can I do it this year?  What if the kids get sick?  What if I get sick?  I won’t have as much vacation to take from the Evil Day Job this year.  Will that make a difference?  I’ve already started the story I want to work on.  What if I run out of words and finish too early?

First off, before joining the insanity next month, think about why you’re writing this particular story.  Most of us recognize that our best work doesn’t come in the fast slinging of words at top speed.  If you want 50K words and you don’t care how crappy they are, more power to you.  However, if you want 50K of solid story that you can actually revise and submit, I hope you’re preparing this week.  Detailed plotting is NOT necessary by any means, but it sure can make your life easier if you at least have a few major plot points ironed out in your mind.

Really, the question you need to answer before midnight on Oct. 31st is how bad do you want to “win” versus how bad do you want to write a publishable story?  If you only want to win, then by all means “cheat” by throwing in bizarre plot elements, having a blast with writing prompts, whatever floats your boat.  If you’re serious about writing a publishable story, then you may have to balance “winning” with “writing.”

Don’t get me wrong — it’s very possible to write 50K in a month that is usable story.  I’ve done it twice myself, although technically, neither NaNoWriMo manuscript in currently available for public consumption.  My first NaNoWriMo project was the Maya thriller, which took me almost two years to revise and prepare for submission.  The first batch of queries went out earlier this year and the waiting game sucks.  Last year’s NaNoWriMo project is book 3 in the Shanhasson trilogy, and it’s in very publishable shape.  There are a few scenes I want to axe and replace with something better, etc. but overall, it’s a clean story that will not need huge revisions.  But I’ve had that story in my head for at least 10 years.  Since the beginning of my writing journey, I’ve known how that story would end.  It was a joy to get there, and 100K in 63 days was not effort — it was heaven.

This year, I plan to finish Victor’s story, which I fully intend to submit to Samhain as soon as it’s revised and polished within an inch of my life.  If I finish his story and I’m short of the 50K total, then I’m going to have to scramble with something else.  I have a few things set up.

Know your goals before you start writing in Nov.  Make every word count.  And have FUN, because there’s nothing as exhilarating as writing at your top speed while millions of other people are slinging words with you all over the world.  Feed on that energy and use it to write the best story possible!

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Friday Snippet: Victor

Continuing from last week’s post.  First draft, subject to the cutting floor and massive revisions, etc.

Mal waited until the other woman left the room as asked, carefully pulling the door shut behind her.  “Did you see the look on her face when you said you prefer the crop?”

Victor took a moment to respond.  Indeed he had seen the flare of darkness in Shiloh’s eyes, the softening of her luscious mouth, and the pink flash of her tongue across those tempting lips.  She hadn’t been repulsed by his admission, not at all.  When he’d regained control of his voice, he answered, “Yes.”

“And did you notice her likeness in the–”

“Of course I did,” he snapped, jerking his legs down off the table so he could pace.

“So what’s the problem?”

“It’s complicated.”

“She wasn’t on my staff for Internet Secrets, so it’s highly unlikely that she’s your spy. Her entire body screams submission when she looks at you, she’s perky, creative, and well liked by everyone on her team.  Her instincts are dead on and she’s developed an incredible show that’s perfect for you and VCONN.  If you snapped your fingers and ordered her to heel, she’d be at your feet in a heartbeat.”

He made himself halt in front of the window and jerked the blinds open.  Blindly, he stared out at downtown Dallas, blinking his eyes against the light.  “That’s not what I want.”

“I’m worried about you.”  Mal joined him at the window but he couldn’t bear to see the sympathy in her gaze, so he pretended extreme interest in the skyline.  “You haven’t been serious about anyone in years.”

Since Kimberly, echoed in the silence.  Despite his friend’s care not to mention his ex-fiancée’s name, he still winced.  “I’ve dated.”

“You’ve taken women to charity events,” Mal said in a flat, careful voice.  “You may have even taken them to your bed.  But you haven’t taken a woman who knows your true needs and makes damned sure you’re satisfied.”

He couldn’t help the twitch of his mouth into a grim, sad smile that matched the emotions he kept buried in his heart.  “No one can satisfy me.”

With a growl, she thumped him on the back.  “Don’t give me that crap.  You and I share many of those darker urges and you know I’m more than happy with Andy.  He needs me as much as I need him.  He likes me mean and nasty with a flail in my hands.”

“Kimberly knew what kind of man I am.”  Each word sliced Victor’s throat like razorblades.  “We met at Silken.  She still couldn’t deal with the truth.”

“She liked you well enough to accept your engagement ring and enjoy your money for months.”  Mal didn’t bother keeping the disdain out of her voice.  “She used you.  She wanted a top who would tie her up and dedicate hours to her enjoyment, without demanding anything from her in return.  She acted like it was a privilege for you to devote hours to her pleasure.  She never took care of you.  She never loved you.”

“That’s unfair.  I know she loved me.”  Victor closed his eyes.  Kimberly’s delicate face blazed in his mind, an image from the night she’d left him.  Tears streaked her face, her eyes wide, white, rolling with terror while she babbled her safeword over and over, a litany to save her from the nightmare.  She’d sobbed in his arms for an hour before leaving for good, and he’d never forget her parting accusation.  You hurt me.  “She couldn’t handle heavy edge play.”

And I’m always on the edge.  He shook his head ruefully.  The sad fact was that the longer he denied himself, the sharper and more vicious that edge became.

“She couldn’t have loved you, not the way you deserve,” Mal insisted.  “Not if she couldn’t handle your kink.  You’re punishing yourself, V, and I hate it.  I hate seeing you close yourself behind prison bars just because one sub couldn’t deal with the full Master.”

“It’s not just one and you know it.  I’ve trained dozens of bottoms over the years, introduced them to the scene, and time after time, they leave me and move on to another top.  Someone safer.  And I can’t say that I blame them.”

He finally met his friend’s gaze and let all the disappointments and failures of his thirty-six years weigh in his gaze.  “I’m tired, Mal.  I’m tired of breaking in the young ones while knowing full well that they’ll never be able to handle my kind of needs.  I’m too old for this shit.”

“You’re burned out.”

“No.  Far from it.”  Victor smiled and even the strongest, proudest Mistress in Dallas flinched and dropped her gaze.  It took constant control to keep that vicious clawing need buried deeply enough for him to function like a normal human being.  “I’m a sadist in the truest sense of the word.   Why do you think I didn’t make a play for Shiloh months ago?  My brief meet-and-greet interview with her after she was hired almost set my desk on fire.  It’s been pure hell to know she’s been under my power here at VCONN this entire time, close, available, as attracted to me as I am to her, but there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it.  All it takes is one phone call to the police, one trip to the hospital, and I won’t have to worry about this season’s ratings.  I’ll be in prison.”

“I know the risks all too well, but that’s why it’s important not to shut yourself off from the people who understand.  You quit going to Silken—”

“For good reason,” Victor said dryly.  “My ex-fiancée married the owner.”

“Which is why I started hosting my own parties, but you always refuse to come.  You can’t just turn off being a Master no matter how much you want to.  Why else do you think Shiloh picked up on your vibe?  You can’t help broadcasting your power, and she’s not afraid of you.”

“Yet.”  He destroyed the small hope that threatened to sprout.  “The green ones always start out interested, but a little bondage and spanking are typically all they want.  Anything heavier sends them running for the hills.  I can’t do the light stuff any more and pretend that’s enough.  I just can’t.  I need…”

He jerked his ponytail tight enough his eyes watered.  He relished the small pain.  It sharpened him, woke him up, made him feel alive and in control.  He needed pain, and if he couldn’t give it to somebody else, then he’d at least give it to himself.

“In her storyboards, did that whip in your hand look like a toy?  What about those stripes on her back?  She knows, V.  She’s offering you a blatant invitation to try her out under the guise of this show.  This is your chance to approach her in a safe, controlled environment.”

“If she freaks out, the show is ruined and the season goes down the shitter.”

“We can do nothing and the season still goes down the shitter.  Or,” Mal drawled out, “Master V and his new sub melt everyone’s socks off and the show is the biggest hit in Dallas history.”

He took a deep breath and let the big picture form in his mind.  He’d always had the ability to scan the field of play in an instant, evaluate the defense, and guess which receiver was most likely going to break free for the big play.  His competitive senses vibrated with excitement.  Win it all and go home with the trophy, or lose and cry in the mud, at least he’d never been afraid to play the game.

He’d been The Victor, the leader who took his team to victory, no matter the cost.

This was the biggest game he’d ever played in his life.  This game was for his heart, and he always played to win.

“Well then.  I guess we have ourselves a new show.”

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Storybuilding: Project Management

By day, I’m a computer programmer (although technically I don’t actually “code” much any more — I do the analysis, write up the design, and hand it off to other people to code) and project management is a key tool we use on every single project.

Now when I said rather glibly yesterday that I needed to work on project management for writing, I was thinking more along the lines of managing multiple projects at the same time.  How to keep one project “in the zone” and still successfully plan or revise another at the same time.  But true Project Management from a business or programming standpoint concentrates more on a single project.  How to get THAT project done, the resources needed, and the timeline to complete it.

Great stuff we can use for Storybuilding!

Since I am trying to storybuild the next major project even while writing Victor’s story, I sat down last night and made some PM notes for the new idea.  Here are a few generic notes I generated that I think any solid storybuilding project should tackle.

Scope and Deliverables

When I sit down at work with the business area, one of the first things we define is the scope of the project.  What *is* included?  What is *not* included?  Why are we tackling this project?  What will the business area gain by doing it now, versus waiting until next year?  Some specific questions to ask yourself:

  • What genre constrictions will this project be bound by? 
  • What specific genre elements will I include or concentrate on?
  • What genre elements — particularly in cross genre stories which I adore — am I going to avoid?
  • Is this one book, or a series?
  • If it’s a series, what is the over-arcing story that ties everything together?
  • For a series, what common elements will be used to keep each book cohesive and united to the rest?
  • What length of story am I considering?
  • What market would be ideal for this story?
  • To the best of my knowledge, are the market conditions favorable for this story?  Is this the right time to pursue this project?
  • Should I target agents or is there a particular publisher I want to pursue?

The next things we iron out in PM are the Deliverables.  Obviously the final products I want are the story, synopsis, query, and submission plan.  But I’m going to focus more on the deliverables of the Storybuilding stage.  In order to position myself to successfully finish this story in a timely manner, what do I need to define?  This is a list of things I’m going to consider:

  • Define the story universe and the key elements of genre that bound it.
  • List all story lines and subplots currently known.  Continue expanding throughout the storybuilding stage.  Aside: in business PM, this can be risky and can lead to “scope creep” where too much ends up getting added to the project, compromising the delivery of the product.  So watch out!  Make sure the storylines always tie back to the Universal theme.
  • Outline the storyarc.  For a series, outline the over-arcing arc.
  • Define each culture, core beliefs, strengths and weaknesses.  Unite each culture to the series theme.
  • Define any underlying mythology.
  • Research any science or historical elements required for the story.

My next project is a Story Universe, not a story world.  I’m tying together several different story ideas I’ve had over the years and uniting them by one common theme and unique twist that they were lacking before.  I have folders and notebooks for several ideas already, so the real work this week has been weeding through those notes and making lists of what will stay, and what needs to change in order to fit into the Universe.  Since I do have quite a list of stories that fit inside the same universe, I have to

  • Prioritize.  Which one is the most likely to “sell” the Universe the best?
  • Focus.  I have a wide variety of tastes and interests.  Not all of them will fit into this Universe.  Some ideas, no matter how cool, must be cut and saved for another day.
  • Streamline.  In my mind, each story was separate until this week.  Now they’re united into the same Universe.  e.g. Antagonists can be combined and morphed into something new and more complex.  Sub-characters can cross stories and tie everything tighter.

Requirements

A key area at work where we spend the bulk of our Project Management is defining Requirements.  Now that we know what’s in scope for the project and what the individual outcomes will be, HOW do we get there.  In writing, I see this as the Storybuilding that I already do.  This includes plotting, character development, etc.  

Summary

In the end, this process’s goal is to enable me to estimate and determine a deadline.  At work, if the user area wants a project by year end, the final estimate is a hundred hours, and we have the resource(s) available,  then great!  Let’s go.  However, if the estimate is a thousand hours, then either we need to push the project off until next year, or we need more resources. 

Obviously with writing, it’s just me.  I can’t throw more bodies at my own project in order to complete it by a deadline.

For the new Story Universe, it’s massive, and so freaking cool I can’t wait to dig in.  However, I need to be realistic and smart about how I proceed.  Maybe defining the scope, deliverables, and requirements will help me get it submitted as soon as possible!

After Victor is finished with me, of course.

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Project Management

I always have multiple projects in the hopper at the Evil Day Job — so why can’t I figure out how to manage two or more writing projects?  If I could  worldbuild and plot one project while drafting or revising another, then I could turnaround projects much more quickly — instead of losing Aug. and Sept to plotting out Victor’s story, for example.

What I fear is losing “the zone.”  It was so hard to get Victor’s story into the 1-2K a day rhythm that’s comfortable for me when a project is in full swing.  I certainly don’t want to do anything to mess that up.  Ideally, I’ll finish Victor’s story by the end of Nov. thanks to NaNoWriMo, edit in Dec. and possibly submit in Jan.  But if I don’t get moving on the next project, I’m going to have a lull in Jan., Feb. and March as I work out the next plot.

Of course somewhere in this mess I’d like to complete revisions to Return to Shanhasson and get it submitted too.

TIME.  I just don’t have enough to finish everything I want.  This next project is relatively time sensitive too.  If I dink around too long plotting everything out, I don’t think the idea will be quite as fresh and cool as I think it is right now.

So I guess I’m going to try and apply business techniques to help me figure out a decent balance across multiple projects.  Through October, I’ll be shooting for at least 1K a day for Victor and at least 1 hour work on the new story universe.  I’ll just have to keep myself from getting too focused on any one thing and losing momentum.  I refuse to risk my ability to get Victor’s story done as soon as possible.

Besides, I really don’t want him to use that wicked crop on ME!