I’ve been feeling a sense of anticipation…and fear.
Yes, it’s that time again. The beginning of a new project, fraught with decisions.
I thought this project would be easy to begin. I have about 10K I wrote back in 2007 to outline a rough plot and sketch out the characters a bit. I’ve also finished quite a bit of research since then about the BDSM lifestyle. As a result, the characters have morphed in my mind, taking on lives of their own, voicing their desires and fears and totally messing up my old outline (which is actually a good thing).
Yet there’s that lingering since of fear. It’s not the unknown, because I have very clear purposes defined, both for myself and the characters. I think it’s fear OF the characters.
The only other character who has managed to make me afraid…is Gregar. It’s no coincidence in the slightest that I originally cast Adrian Paul as both Gregar and Victor. They share more similarities than I ever expected when I started outlining Victor’s story back in 2007.
So yeah, “Gifted” is shaping up to be one whopper of a story.
Have you ever had a character that scared the bejeezus out of you? What’d you do to work through it?
Im still trying to figure out how to get over said fear of certain characters. 😛 Being a rookie sucks. Good luck with Gifted!
The Diplomat scares me. His concept is so awesome that I’m afraid I’ll screw him up. The last thing I want to do is waste a character like him. *sigh*