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Author: Joely
State of the Writing
I was on a roll for Vicki, and then the first major sex scene totally derailed me. Last week I picked at the story each night, but I was lucky to get a couple of hundred words, where the weeks before I was clearing 1-2K easily. However, I was able to finish several “summary” scenes that were important but not “candy bar scenes.”
The big candy bar scene I’m now ready for is with Victor on page. I decided I should re-read part of his book last night to make sure I got his voice right…….and then ended up reading until midnight. Oops.
It doesn’t help that I started a new workout routine this week. I tend to obsess. (Who, moi?) I’ve been wholly consumed with getting back on track in exercise, which seems to have done a number on my writing. However, I know that exercise will make me feel better and eventually, improve my sense of wellbeing and fire my creativity. Or so I’ve been told. Right now, I’m still cripping around groaning at sore muscles.
Meanwhile, I’m working on line edits for The Bloodgate Guardian, due back 3/10. I worked for awhile today and got through about 1/3, so I’m in good shape.
My goals for this month:
- 50K in Vicki so I can finish her next month.
- Edits on The Bloodgate Guardian and Victor as they come up.
- Promo mailings for Dear Sir, I’m Yours. I have some excellent bookmarks! If you’d like some, drop me an e-mail and I’ll see what I can do.
Friday Snippet: Vicki & Elias
This has to be the last snippet, gang, sorry. To make it up to you, it’s a juicy one. Sorry it’s late. This whole week has gotten away from me. I didn’t get anywhere near the word count I wanted, and our weekend is packed. Sigh. Hopefully next week will be better.
Elias set her down long enough for him to shuck his pants, while she shed her clothes in record time. Then he slammed her up against the wall so hard the whole house shook.
By the quirk of his mouth, he knew damned well how that must have sounded to Jesse downstairs. “Condom?”
Breathless, she narrowed her eyes, tempted to tell him yes just to piss him off. She was on the pill, but they’d been broken up for more months than she cared to count. “Have you been with anyone else?”
“No.” Somehow, he managed to sound insulted. “I’m not the one with the hot cabana boy downstairs listening to our every groan.”
“I’m not the one who walked out on us, and no, if you’re curious, I haven’t been with anyone else either.”
She pushed the shirt the rest of the way off his shoulders, reveling in the sheer strength in his body. He wasn’t a big man, but he carried a wallop of power in his lean, six-foot-tall frame. He’d trained for years, so he knew exactly how to use every muscle. His neck and shoulders corded and flexed, effortlessly shifting her higher on the wall.
“No condom,” she whispered, winding her fingers in the short, dark hair at the base of his neck. “Just you, Spike.”
Half in play but also deadly serious, he snarled and snapped his teeth at her ear. He gripped her shoulder in his jaws, biting just this side of pain, and she couldn’t suppress the delicious shiver that rocked her body against his. With a brutal thrust, he shoved inside her so hard that a cry tore out of her throat and she cracked her skull on the wall.
He knew exactly what she liked; he knew how much she could take; and he certainly already knew how slick and wet she was for him. The only problem: it’d been too long for him, too. After just a few thrusts, he shuddered and poured into her.
Panic made her pulse flutter like a butterfly trapped in a glass. Need pounded inside her as strong as his thrusts, demanding, hammering for attention. Her skin felt raw, like she’d rolled around in glass and sharp rocks, swollen and so damned tight that she wanted to scream at him for finishing so quickly.
“Damn you,” she ground out, clawing his back hard enough he grunted and thudded inside her on another pulse. “You son of a bitch. God, I need you so bad. What am I supposed to do now? I hurt!”
He actually had the audacity to laugh. “You’re insatiable, Vik.”
Furious, desperate tears burned her eyes. He’d said she was like a hungry crocodile. Maybe he was tired of trying to keep her satisfied. Maybe that’s why she suddenly found herself attracted to two men. Fury, need, and shame twisted inside her. She shoved at his chest, threw her elbow at his throat, and the more he tried to contain her struggles, the harder she fought him.
In a smooth move they must teach at the police academy, he flipped her over and used his weight to pin her against the wall. Awkwardly, she flailed back at him with both arms, but he snagged first one wrist and then the other in the small of her back. The more she squirmed, the higher he pushed her arms until her muscles quivered and her shoulders burned with pain.
“I’ve got you, babe,” he whispered in a devilishly relaxed—fully satiated—voice. “You know I’ll take good, long, hard care of you.”
Good News for Victor!
I just signed the contract for Victor (Hurt Me So Good) to go to Samhain! I’m so happy and relieved. Of course I love Victor and those of you who’ve helped me with beta reads were all very positive, but I was still nervous since I have a new editor this time around. I’ll keep you posted on the official release date.
Oh, and I saw the cover workup for The Bloodgate Guardian (title change from Codex) and it made me do another Snoopy dance. I made everyone at dinner (we met Uncle J, Aunt BB, and Grandma and Grandpa at Tasia) look at it on my iPhone. As soon as I can share, I’ll let you know.
Sorry I didn’t post a snippet today — just too busy. I’ve started a new workout routine and it is KILLING me. In a good way. I hope. Ouch. Wince.
Vicki Catches Jesse Peeping
I’ve slowed down on the snippets because the writing has slowed down too. I finally finished the big sex scene, and then totally lost momentum. Maybe I just needed a breather! I’m still tapping away on the next chapter but it’s not going as well as I’d like. I’m hoping to hit 30K by Sunday, but I’m nowhere near that right now.
This section immediately follows the last snippet I posted (Jesse ran toward the door like zombies were crawling out of the TV).
Warning: sexual content, voyeurism.
Not a moment too soon, because she slammed into Elias and attacked his shirt. He’d left his tie and jacket in the truck, but he couldn’t remember if he had any spare clothes here. Jerking at the button on her jeans, he bit her bottom lip so hard her breath hissed out, spurring her to yank harder.
“Watch the shirt, babe. I have to show up for work tomorrow without looking like I was mugged.”
A button tinged on the wall. “I’ll make you a new one.”
He jammed his hand down the front of her jeans, wincing at the zipper digging into his skin, but he couldn’t slow down. He had to stroke her, see how turned on she was, how quickly she came at his touch. It’d tell him a lot about how much she’d missed him.
She rolled her hips, squirming against him, helping him work his fingers deeper, past the satin, hooking his finger beneath…
“Yes,” he growled out against her ear. “You’re so wet and hot you’re going to come…now,” he finished, a bit surprised. He hadn’t meant it as a command, but she shuddered, groaning deep in her throat.
Her cry of pleasure rose in intensity, her hunger flaming higher. Tightening her arms around his neck, she hopped up against him, forcing him catch her with his free arm while she wrapped her legs around his waist.
“Hurry,” she moaned, but then she stiffened in his arms, just a moment, and he wondered if she was going to come again so quickly. He buried a finger inside her and she shuddered, her voice rising, wild and desperate. “Elias, please!”
He started for her bedroom, but a soft noise made him hesitate. It sounded like a low moan. He whipped his head around as the door snicked shut. Damn that punk. If he’d thought to watch the show…
“I need you,” she whispered, thrusting and stroking her tongue in his ear, her breath hot and frantic, and Elias forgot to care.
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Leaning against the wall with his eyes closed, Jesse struggled to calm his breathing. She’d looked at him over the cop’s shoulder. She’d seen him standing there, jeans gaping open to ease the misery, jerking in climax. If the cop had turned around and seen him indecently exposed, he’d probably be a gelding.
A muffled thump, a low, hard voice, and Jesse felt the stirring in his groin all over again. He stumbled down the stairs, washed his hands, and cleaned up the mess as quickly as possible. Then he stripped naked, stretched out on the bed she’d given him, and stared up at the ceiling.
The thumps were louder. Yes, he’d been right. Her bedroom was directly above. He closed his eyes and imagined how the cop was making love to her. Not the bed, not yet. They’d been too urgent to make it that far.
Jesse scrambled to his knees and planted his hands on the wall above the headboard. Yes, against the wall, vibrating with their passion. Braced on his knees, he imagined her pressed against his back, stroking his chest and stomach, lingering, playing low on his belly while she laughed huskily in his ear.
When she screamed, he would be the one rocking the bed.
D&R Reviews Survive My Fire
I’ve known Tia online for years but never queried her to review any of my work for two reasons: she doesn’t do e-books and she doesn’t typically review sexier books. However, she picked up a copy of Survive My Fire while Drollerie Press was running a free download, and gave it a shot reading on her iPod.
I’m doubly honored that she chose SMF as an e-book introduction and also reviewed my debut on her excellent Debuts & Reviews site.
The voice is what captured me in this story, and what held me throughout. It is otherworldly, surreal and utterly engaging.
Thank you so much, Tia!
Vicki: Elias Comes Home
This is a little heavy on backstory and introspection, which might be cut in revision, but I need to make sure Elias is more than an asshole. At least sometimes.
😉
Elias slipped his seldom-used key into her locked door and eased it open. Why so stealthily, he hated to admit. It made him feel sneaky and mean, hoping to catch her in a compromising position, and also sick to his stomach at the thought. He didn’t know if he could really face that reality. He could talk about it, even joke about it, but if he saw her having sex with another man, it might be the last breath that bastard would ever take.
Even if that man was Jesse, who managed to give off that helpless victim vibe that must have drawn the vilest perps in Dallas.
Elias knew he had no right to claim her sole affections, not after abandoning her these past months. Frustrated rage at his job had simmered over into his personal life. When Donnie had been killed, Elias could only picture himself lying dead in the street. He’d like to think that maybe he’d wanted to protect her from ever ending up a sobbing widow leaning over his coffin, but he couldn’t lie to himself.
Her client had blown his partner away.
She’d only being doing her job, that just happened to run counter to his. But she didn’t have to do it so f*cking well.
So he’d taken his rage out on her, even though he knew it was stupid. He knew he’d been a prick. She was a strong woman and she could carry a hell of a lot, but that didn’t make it right for him to dump the blame on her shoulders. Especially when I carry Donnie’s death on my back, too.
It would serve him right if she’d moved on and found another man. A man who didn’t work himself to death in case a drug dealer didn’t get to him first. Or a kid who worships the ground she walks on because she saved him.
The lights were off but the television was playing one of those ridiculous black-and-white zombie movies she loved so much. Two heads were visible above the couch, although Jesse’s was low and tucked into her neck more than Elias cared to see. Nothing suspicious was going on; they were just watching a movie.
Doubt ate away at him. She’d been so upset, so desperate earlier when they’d talked on the phone. Maybe they’d already done the deed hours ago. Instead of serving dinner, maybe she’d taken Jesse on top of the table.
Elias knew full well that she was a passionate woman. The kid was so eager and desperate to belong to her, that God only knew how far he’d pushed her. Elias couldn’t even bring himself to blame him. He’d do a hell of a lot to keep her himself, even if the last few months hadn’t proven how much he cared about her.
He shut the door quietly, but her head whipped around. Her eyes met his, and he knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that she hadn’t found release in anyone else’s arms. Not by the fire in her eyes. He swore the temperature in the room spiked twenty degrees.
Beside her, Jesse uncurled, stretching like a sleepy cat.
Elias forced himself to move slowly instead of falling on her like a starving wolf. Methodically, he stashed his gun and badge in the bolted-down safe he’d installed in her coat closet once they got serious. Shutting the door, he turned and raked his eyes over her as she stood. She wore jeans and a soft sweater instead of a slinky gown or low-cut blouse, but it was all he could do not to bury his hands in that cotton and rip his way into her lush body.
She stalked toward Elias, her eyes glittering, her body simmering that siren call of need. Need for him. Eyes only for him. Despite the handsome younger man hovering warily at her back.
Trying not to be an asshole, at least this time, he said, “Get your butt downstairs, Jesse.”
The kid shot toward the door like zombies had started crawling out of the TV.
Vicki and Jesse’s Agreement
I wouldn’t want to start you off this Monday without a nice steamy visit with Vicki. 😉
The actual “deed” implied in this snippet took me days to finish. Finally wrapped it up tonight. *whew, I’m exhausted!!*
Next scene to write: Vicki stops by VCONN for a little talk with Victor!
Warning: sexual innuendo but no actual congress. *winks*
[Vicki:] “We are so not going there. We can’t. I want to give you time—”
“I’ve had time on the streets. I’ve done time in prison. I don’t need time to know that I love you.”
“I need time. I can’t say that I want to protect you, and then take advantage of you.” In desperation, she added, “Elias is spending the night, and this time, he won’t be on the couch.”
Jesse’s eyes only darkened more and he edged closer. “Can I watch?”
“No!” She shuddered at the thought. Elias would probably bust a vein in his forehead if she’d even thought to ask him. “Absolutely not.”
Groaning, he dropped his head to her shoulder. “Please, Vicki, I’m dying. Give me something. Anything. Can I at least come when you do?”
She opened her mouth to retort that he could come whenever the hell he wanted, but she couldn’t say it. She stood there, mouth open, eyes wide, dumbstruck by the surge of pure power and primal lust that crashed through her. She liked the idea of controlling his release. Making him wait. Giving him a word, a simple caress, and watching his mouth fall open, his eyes blaze, while he pumped at her command.
“Oh,” he breathed out in a soft whisper, raising his head to search her face, his eyes as wide as hers. “You like that idea. While he’s inside you, think of me downstairs, tangled in the sheets, sweating and rock-hard while I listen, begging to hear your cry of release. No matter how much I hurt, I won’t touch myself. All it’ll take is your voice, your scream, and I’ll explode. Yes? Please?”
She swallowed hard and tried to slow down her breathing before she hyperventilated. “On one condition.”
“Anything.”
“You back down on the flirting until I get my head wrapped around this. Okay?”
“Wrapped around you and me?”
“And me and Elias.”
“Yes’m.” Jesse smiled and tipped his head in a nod. “Is he a good lover?”
She remembered Elias’s threat-promise: We’re going to be loud, babe. “Oh, yeah. It might get rather…rowdy.”
“Good.” Jesse smiled, his eyes sultry and lazy. “I can’t wait for him to arrive.”
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Friday Snippet: Vicki & Elias
This snippet comes from Chapter Four, where Vicki has a heart-to-heart with Elias. She’s scared, confused, and they’re just trying to figure out what’s going to happen to their relationship now that Jesse is intruding.
Background: the first night, she made Elias sleep on the couch and Jesse slept downstairs.
Her phone rang, making her jump. Elias. Sick at heart, she hit the button. “Please don’t tell me that you can’t make it tonight.”
“What’s wrong, Vik? Is your houseguest starting to scare you?”
He laughed, telling her he wasn’t really serious. “You were right, Elias,” she whispered, fighting back the tears. “You were right, and I’m in trouble.”
“Trouble like you need me to come over and bust his mouth open again?” His voice sharpened, all cop, ringing with intent. “I can be there in twenty minutes. If you’re in danger, then I’ll send the closest squad car to pick him up.”
“No, no, I’m not in danger. He is. I’m scaring myself.”
“Hold on a minute, Vik. Let me find a private room.”
She heard the chatter of the office and finally the door shut, sealing off all noises.
“Okay, spill. What has you so freaked out?”
“He does love me. He told me. Even the birthday card—that he made months ago—says that he loves me.”
“Yeah,” Elias said slowly, drawing the word out. “How’d you react to that earth-shattering news?”
She squeezed her eyes shut and held the phone away from her ear in case he started yelling at her. “I kissed him.”
It took her a minute to realize the muffled sounds coming from his phone weren’t curses, but might actually be laughter. “You are not laughing at me, are you? I kissed him. No, I slammed him up against the wall like you did last night, only instead of splitting his lip open, I damned near bit it off.”
Elias laughed harder. “Did he thank you for it?”
“Yeah, yeah he did. In fact, he begged me to do it again. Why aren’t you pissed?”
“Oh, Vik, I don’t know. It’s not like I have any right to be pissed at you for kissing another man when I haven’t been around in months. Besides, you’re too upset for me to be mad, and he’s not a bad kid. No, he’s a real good-looking kid, a nice tender morsel.” He laughed harder, like one of his buddies had just told him the most hilarious joke he’d ever heard. “Making love to you has always been like wrestling a hungry crocodile. Did you shock the hell out of him?”
Stricken, she blinked back tears. Her chest felt too tight to breathe. “I’m that bad?”
“Aw hell, no, Vicki,” he said, his voice as tender as she’d ever heard him. “You’re the hottest, sexiest, most passionate woman I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet. But you’re not a soft, passive woman in bed, far from it. Half the fun is wrestling you for dominance, and the other half is making sure you enjoy the consolation prize as much as I am. Any smarter man would never have left you simmering all these months. It’s as much my fault as yours that you’re so attracted to Jesse.”
“So you’ll come over tonight? Please?”
He let out a wicked, low laugh that made her blood smolder. “Oh, I don’t know, Vik. Your couch isn’t that comfortable. Besides, you’ve got that hot cabana boy to tend to you now. Why do you need me?”
“I won’t make you sleep on the couch tonight. I swear.”
“We’re going to be loud, babe,” he purred, drawing a rough groan from her. “I’m going to make you scream. We’re going to hit every surface of your bedroom, hell, your whole apartment, and your boy’s going to hear every whimper, thud, curse, and shout of release. Are you sure you’re up for that?”
Her nipples were so hard the lace of her bra felt like sandpaper. “Can you come home now?”
Now it was his turn to groan. “I wish I could, but I’ve got a meeting with the Lieutenant in five minutes. I expect we’ll go out on a tip this afternoon, so don’t hold dinner for me.”
“Elias, please, you have to come tonight.”
“I will,” he promised. “It might be late, but as soon as we’re done with the bust, I’ll drive straight to you.” He hesitated, an edge coming to his voice. “You know he’s probably loaded with STDs or worse. God only knows what he’s been exposed to in prison, let alone the streets.”
“I know,” she whispered, lying back on her bed. “I’m taking him to the clinic tomorrow. I already made an appointment.”
“You’re serious, then. Jesus, Vik.”
“I know,” she repeated, closing her eyes and rubbing her temple with her free hand. “What does this mean for us?”
“Hell if I know. I’d say I should simply take the hint and get the hell out of Dodge, but you’re begging me to come over tonight.”
“I’ve missed you,” her voice broke but she refused to bitch and moan about the past. Elias had chosen to bail on her. He’d played both judge and jury and blamed her for everything that had gone wrong, but she couldn’t stop loving him. Even when he’s an uncompromising ass. “I don’t want to lose you all over again.”
“But you want him too.”
Her relationship with Elias had always had a lot of failings, but one thing she’d never done was lie to him. “Yeah, I do.”